wow !!! i have not been here on my inspiration blog for a long time now! 

have been very busy lately

people probably would call it work

hardcore programming work

 

i rather choose to call it creating

making something from almost nothing :-D

from ideas

bringing them down into specific form,into tangible shape, use-able things

 

that is always exiting for me

this very alive process that goes far beyond just doing the job at hand

 

right now it is the digital medium that i am working with, the web, but it could be wood just as well, it could be clay or a class of students or a meal to cook

 

always it is the process of creation that makes it fresh, new, alive, special 

 

this is why i refuse to call it work

i rather call it play

 

because that attitude of play, the child-like innocence of phantasy takes everything beyond habit, beyond something i already know and simply repeat, it takes the same thing into the realm where magic can happen – creation, manifestation of something unique and fresh

 

of course … there is always the temptation to do something the way we already know how to do it

to go on mechanic

do the job!

 

in the world of business, of profession,of money making i know that something like my attitude towards productive action is not always appreciated, maybe not always practical or practicable

 

but for myself i try to apply it to whatever action i dedicate myself to

 

there is always the little bit extra that i can do, the little bit different road i can take, the new technique i can learn along the way

and the extra love i can put into the task

 

people see the outcome and maybe they can not really put a finger on it – but they can feel it!

 

there is something special, something different

 

the element of phantasy? life? inspiration?

 

i think all of that

 

when i get myself out of the way, my fears (“am i able to pull this complex task off? “i have never done such a thing”), my petty calculations (“will i be able to stay in budget?” “will i be adequately paid?”), my ambitions (“i want to create something really outstanding here”)

when i let go of all that and simply put myself into the creative flow, open minded, awake, willing to go any way needed, progressing one step at a time after the other -then an amazing thing happens:

 

i go beyond time, hours do not matter anymore,day, night, food is not my main concern anymore

this all becomes peripheral

 

the creative flow becomes center stage and i become the child again that plays, weaves phantasy into reality

 

of course i have all my skills and i have my persistence, my perseverance that takes me thru the very real technical obstacles and challenges that have me sweat sometimes

 

but still – the lightness of being is still with me

when i manage to stay in the flow the inspiration, the freshness of spirit, the ideas,the energy, the life – all is there and i don’t have to do it

 

it does

 

this is cool, really

 

probably hard to express with words

 

i hope you see what i mean :-)