2020 / 2021: a few poems and mental doodles, reflections and bits of trans-personal wisdom too. And a little 2021 joke on top : )

what keeps me going

 

what keeps me going

is the little puppy dog over there

with his cute little tail wiggling enthusiastically

in anticipation of someone caressing him

lovingly

 

and the eyes of a child i see somewhere

open and innocent

letting it all in

no resistance

 

and to feel my fingers gliding over the piano keys

finding new harmonies

so many ways of

real feeling

 

those are the moments that save me

restoring, recharging my spirit

hope sprouts from there

faith

 

 

 

   ~~~

 

 

 

 

i will not pray

for transformation anymore!

 

look what happened

in 2012

a transformation indeed!

 

three years of Dark Night of the Soul happened

which i had actually asked for (“a profound transformation”)

naively ;  )

 

not that i wish to complain now

it has been one of the best things in my life so far

complete with a resurrection and new life :  )

 

awesome journey

painful indeed

 

but here i am

praying

again

 

asking the gods

or whoever directs our fate

to do some action

something beyond my scope

 

something about humanity’s predicament

 

 

 

~~~

 

 

 

what is it that i am doing here, actually?

 

life for me has come to a point

where action has mostly moved into the inner space

into consciousness

the oneness realm

 

where the pains and travesties of the wold

are felt as my own

and my own are seen in the world

 

no way to look away anymore

 

the observation and comprehension of the world

(and i mean mostly the human world)

has become the most interesting and absorbing activity

and at the same time a new kind of spiritual practice

 

only by observing in a completely balanced way

connecting but not reacting, empathic yet unaffected

in a quantum experiment the observers are affecting the experiment

yet not determine the outcome

 

the difference between observing and witnessing

 

this is a mind boggling experience but but very simple and natural all the same

and if you ask me why i do what i do i will not be able to say

but i will know what i do

 

i know it as a way to affect the world

without changing a bit

 

I guess Buddhist High Lamas knew that

when they moved their whole culture out of Tibet

they did not resist The Change

they did not complain

 

so shall i live my life

 

 

 

  ~~~

 

 

 

The Great Experiment – 2020

(What will it take to unify a fractured world)

 

so many fault lines

so many divisions

so many disparities

so many differences

 

almost impossible to imagine

what could unite us

humanity

 

but then, lets add a threat big enough to our health

a threat small enough to be virtually invisible

a threat disruptive enough

to stop everything

in the ways

we know

 

this should actually wake us up

don’t you think?

this should actually make us realize

that we can not fight pandemics alone, that we can not survive climate change

only by looking out for ourself and our own

 

this unprecedented situation should – theoretically – make us realize that coordination and cooperation is a far more effective way to solve a global problem than “every man for himself”, “America First”, “Britain’s Independence”, “”China’s doing it all in secrecy” and the rest of such self-centered attitudes

 

obviously, it did not wake us up, the shock was not strong enough

the blow too drawn out

 

what will it need?

a more fatal virus?

bigger fires eating away whole towns?

more severe hurricane seasons?

hotter summers?

 

more Seasons of Trump?

more Bolsonaros, Erdogans, Orbans, Putins, Xi Jinpings?

 

I don’t know

I really don’t

but clearly i am more than a little bit worried

 

 

 

 

   ~~~

 

 

 

politics

 

 

I have never been political

or even slightly interested in politics all my life

 

honestly, the endless self-congratulating and aggrandizing

the bombast, the lying and haggling for more power has always disgusted me

the obviously phony smiles and handshakes still make me want to puke!

 

And yet, for the last four years or so i have been observing, have been reading and informing myself more and more about the political sphere and about the forces of power that are at play there

 

power power

power

 

we have to master that power

use it as a force for good

the good of the whole instead the good of a few

 

we need to master that

and quick!

 

 

   ~~~

 

 

year of paradox

 

 

2020 was the year of paradox for me

the simultaneous experience of opposites

feelings and states that actually don’t go together

obviously can co-exist inside my soul

 

a revelation for me, really a kind of enlightenment ;  )

 

 

sorrow and worry for the world and wonder and awe about life’s resilience

skepticism and disappointment about our human flaws and follies and deep faith in our potential

deep loneliness and alienation and complete connectedness, almost oneness at the same time

and the feeling that all is well, all is as it shall be

right in the middle of all the craziness of our world

 

 

pretty crazy experience indeed

for the mind

blowing it

 

 

(who needs this kind of mind anyway ;  )

 

 

 

 

 

2021

a happy new year for ya all

hope-fully

hope full

 

 

 

 

 

One thought on “2020 / 2021: a few poems and mental doodles, reflections and bits of trans-personal wisdom too. And a little 2021 joke on top : )

  1. The Great Experiment – 2020. Well, as far as I know, the Asian (confucian-style) societies, not only China, but also Taiwan, Vietnam, Japan, South Korea, Singapore have MUCH more developed sense of cooperation, coordination, solidarity and social responsibility. This is why they are managing the pandemic much more effectively and makes their societies even more cohesive. I suppose you would object there cooperation is reached by force and threats, which is true, yet the only possible way to reach it. While western societies are getting more and more fragmented.

    Year of paradox – this was my favourite one, very realistic, because our life is full of paradoxes, ambivalence and contradictions:-)

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