Slow paced, rain-filled days here in Samara.
Everything’s getting ready for the wet season.
I am getting ready for departure!
Packing light, storing up my few remaining valuables, getting rid of the clutter.

I feel almost dreamy, unfocussed, unwilling to work.
I am disconnecting from the places, the people here that matter.
Giving thanks for their company, the love shared, the joy they brought.

Going to the places once more, places i love and been at a lot during those last three years.
Feeling the soft bangs of goodbye.

Its time now, i feel
time to send my soul
over to the other side
of this planet.
Time to attune again
to “Civilization”
and to the adventures
that await me.
Time to get ready
for whatever Spirit
has in store for me
there.

I am quietly excited, i can not say that i am expecting something specific to happen. I just feel that its the right thing to do, the right time to go.

Will i come back to Matapalo in September?
Well … i have a return ticket.
And my worldly belongings are here.
(one suitcase, one guitar, one tent ; ).
And a few people who respect me are here,
some who love me, i guess.
And i love them too.

And i have been deeply happy here, especially this last year has been sooooo good for my soul.

I have been able to relax my high-flying ambitions of creating a advanced community, of consciousness research in a dedicated residential group setting, of my Agape vision, my WePod-Dream.

I have not abandoned any of that – no way, i would have to abandon mySelf.
I have simply Let Go & Let God (LGLG) or whoever else inspired such futuristic ideas to take shape in my mind.

I have been relaxing into Being
into moment to moment
here-and-now living
easing into
The Flow

Pura Vida
Pure Life

No worries about any future, no fear, no avoidance. A clean past, gratitude and connection to the loved ones who shared my way.

I honestly don’t remember that i have ever felt so integrated, so whole in myself, so thoroughly enjoying every moment of the day, every people who comes my way. even the assholes, even the difficult encounters.

I think i have never been in a State of Gratitude so constantly, so naturally, so long.

And all along Awareness became sharper & sharper, the Witness awake and getting more & more of whats going on behind the scenes.

Something in me Reflecting all the time, Understanding, bringing Light.

Consciousness growing, expanding.

So …

All of that going on while i am walking this beautiful beaches ( a lot ).

And all of that going on while i am sitting at my favorite hangout places ( a lot ).

While drinking espresso and enjoying the beautiful women, girl friends & beauties in general ; ).

( Call them Muses, Beauty is inspiring me always! ).

 

So … the question is: Will i come back in September?
Do i really have a good reason to come back here to this paradise place?
Other than to enjoy more of all of that?

Not really!

Do i have a real good reason to live on at all in this beautiful world?
Together with the other 9 billion more or less confused people multiplying like mad?
In a society getting more crazy by the day?

Well, i guess that’s really now mainly up to Spirit, to what my Higher Self, my Soul has in store for me.

I am definitely willing and ready for most anything that makes sense to me.
And i am also ready to move on if that is in The Cards.